Triggers

For years, I have enjoyed my wine in the evenings.  That, unfortunately, is linked with smoking.  Caffeine and alcohol are known triggers for those who are addicted to nicotine...which I was.  Drinking promotes smoking...and vice versa.  I haven't had anything to drink (or smoke) since I was admitted to the hospital over a month ago.  I told the ICU nurse that I was a smoker and was afraid of withdrawal.  She assured me that, if I needed it, they would supply me with a patch.  I didn't need it.  (Someone needs to explain that to me!) 

Okay...so a few days ago, I thought some wine would taste good.  Got some...and guess what?  I needed nicotine, big time!  That only goes to prove that I am my own worst enemy.  I am not out of the woods yet, dear friends.  Intelligence, logic, near-tragedy, and personal trauma have no sway over the call of addictions.  All I can do is keep talking to myself.  I need to go back to work!