Music

My friend Ryan came over today with a CD of tunes that I had requested for the MP-3 player that he gave me for Christmas. I'm not sure if anyone can appreciate what a special gift that was! My interest in music is pretty eclectic. I like one or two tunes from various places...not totally interested in a whole album from any one artist. I don't know how Ryan accomplished it, but he came up with all of the songs that I requested, and then some.

He didn't stay long...and I felt kind of stupid. I listened to those songs and cried my eyes out! Why?? I don't know! There are just some songs that I consider musically perfect...background accompaniment and vocals...and they hit a cord in my heart. Some represent something in my soul that I can never get back...years of singing The Hallelujah Chorus at my high school Christmas concerts...a love for my once-husband that is gone forever. It is silly for me to want to share them with others because they don't share the same connections. Still, it was a special experience for me to listen today. Thank you, Ryan!!!

Raggedy Ann... My mother made my daughter a Raggedy Ann doll when she was a baby. I was cleaning out drawers in Meg's old room yesterday and found Raggedy...looking old and neglected. When Megan was about to become a mother for the first time, she told me that she was sitting in a rocking chair and looking at the doll...had lifted up her dress and found the embroidered heart: I love you. She fell apart, realizing that her long-dead grandmother was reaching out to her with a message of love. Meg's baby was born on Grandma Covill's birthday. Circumstance? I don't think so! I will clean Raggedy Ann up and offer her to Robin. I hope she will love the doll in the same respect that it was given... Just another of the things that Meg left behind that I totally don't understand...

Snow here. Haven't left the house in two days. No biggie. I haven't missed the ouside world. I just want it to be over so I can get on with life, such as it is...