Why?

How is it that I can be so successful with things that don't matter much, but on the important stuff, I fail miserably??

I have a philodendron plant that has been in the same pot for well over 25 years. I don't feed it, and only water it occasionally, but still it survives. Why?? Well, the dear plant is beginning to show signs of dying. I will root cuttings and replant it in new soil so it can regenerate. It doesn't owe me anything!

I'm still trying to figure out why having grandchildren is so much more rewarding that having one's own kids. There is the obvious--the fact that one can spoil one's grandchildren and give them back to their parents--but it is more than that. There is a certain freedom about loving children late in life. I don't have to "fix" them...just love them. And I sure do!

The family across Stanley Road from me was having a yard sale today. Why? A couple of months ago, the lady that lived there died. They were trying to dispose of some of her precious belongings, which were very nice. It struck me that none of the things they were selling would mean as much to the buyers as they did to the woman who died. God help the people who have to dispose of my stuff! I have very little of any use to anyone! The woman had some very nice clothes and shoes...all too small for me. Ugh!

On Friday, I went to a function at church called Snack 'n Craft. It's a ladies' night out kind of deal. Bring a snack to share and a craft you are working on...spread out on the ample tables in the room, and enjoy the company. Why did I go? Leaving home with my projects forces me to actually work on them. When I was still teaching, I used to take papers to grade. This time, I took Civil War pension documents to sort through and transcribe--all part of the process of understanding what my great-great-grandmother went through just to get an $8-a-month widow's pension! (She couldn't prove she was a widow. Turned out that her husband had simply abandoned the family. Long story!) Anyway, I enjoyed the fellowship.

Today was a mostly fruitless day for me. Not sure why. Maybe tomorrow will be better!