All I Have Left

Well...let's see. There is laundry. Meg left without doing that for herself or the children.
There are toys. Toys everywhere. Insignificant stuff that the children didn't care about but is left to remind me that they aren't here.

Thanks be to God for Phil and Judy (Nathan's parents) and Tiffany (Megan's friend) and my own friends (especially Ryan) who have helped me to TRY to understand what has transpired in my life.

I find it amusing that the children are now enrolled in a Catholic school...and Megan, who is so very opposed to organized religion, has said nothing.

I am forcing myself to survive. Made myself go to cardiac rehab today. Ate a tub of applesauce to take my pills, and had a can of spaghetti and meatballs. I'm hungry, but I can hardly choke things down. Meg wants to come and pick up her tent. Her tent??? Wow. Sounds like she is really suffering about giving up her children. I will never, ever understand.

It's pretty quiet around here, but I am beginning to perceive reality. I am finally taking control of my own life. It will take awhile. Meg will have to do the same with hers. God provides.

I am asking Almighty God for enough time to find ways for the children to understand before I am taken. So many lives so affected. It's not fair...but life happens.