Ugh! My granddaughter is driving me crazy with her newfound fear of spiders! It didn't help that we had to kill one in her bedroom two days in a row. Now, every stinkin' night, she wants to sleep on the couch or in my bedroom. It is now close to 10 PM and she is still up claiming to be scared...near tears. I feel bad for her, but the truth is that I am DONE dealing with kids for the day. I am within an inch of waking Megan and letting her deal with it...but if I do, it won't be pretty. I hate this...
It is time for the school year to be over. I have two classes that make me insane, and some of those kids aren't doing much for my teammates, either. I witnessed the science teacher have a major blowup today. He claims he had never been so angry with students. I have basically given up trying to teach anything with my last two classes. Keeping the lid on is the basis of my efforts with them. I have had reasons to question my decision to retire. I am going to take a pretty big hit, financially, but I can't handle the stress anymore. Days like this tell me that I made the right decision. We'll just have to tighten our belts at home. What bothers me most is that I leave school tired, then come home to children that I adore but require supervision when I am trying to get dinner together, etc. I hope to God that the absence of school stress will help my quality of life, and that of my family. I am drowning in clutter and disarray!
Heh heh...the few times that the children and/or I have visited Meg at work, I have been aghast at how very QUIET it is there. The contrast between her work environment and mine is HUGE.
Okay...I finally re-escorted Robin to bed and stayed, on my knees, rocking the mattress for the second night in a row, to get her to sleep. It worked, but we can't be doing this all the time! She was conked by 10. Doesn't bode well for the morning...
I repeat: I hate this!
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